~The Di@rY Of My LiFe...~

Just a dream..♥♥♥

2010-11-28T14:19:00.002+08:00

(Sam Tsui)

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
(Christina Grimmie)
I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

(Sam Tsui)

I was at the top and I was like I’m in the basement.
Number one spot and now you found your own replacement.
I swear now that I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
I shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See your pretty face run my fingers through your hair.

My lover, my life. My baby, my wife.
You left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I know that it just ain't right.

(Together)
I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

(Christina Grimmie)
When I'm ridin I swear I see your face at every turn.
I'm tryin to get my usher over, but I can let it burn.
And I just hope you'll know you're the only one I yearn for.
No wonder I'll be missing when I'll learn?

Didn't give you all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about you baby.

Hey, you was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm wishin that she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong...

(Together)
And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

Ohhh, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a dream).
I travel back (travel back) (i travel back), down that road (down the road)(down the road).
Will you come back? No one knows (no one knows).
I realize, it was only just a dream (No, no, no...).

And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes) (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a.. it's just a dream).
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize (i realize), it was only just a dream
(baby, it was only just... it was only just a dream)

Nooo... Ohhh...

It was only just a dream...

*************

Im OK Even it is hurt....

2010-08-04T13:17:00.000+08:00

It's okay even if I can't see

It's okay even if I can't breath
If I could meet you only once
If I could give you all my heart

How much more do I have to miss you
So that maybe you could know my heart?
How much more do I to cry and cry
So that tears could be dry?

Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it the punishment for loving you so much?
Even though you say that I can lose everything
It's okay if I just have you to be with me

Even if my heart is broken when loving you
Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you
It's okay because I love you
It's okay even if I get hurt

The farther I turn away so as to forget you
The more I miss you, What can I do
Even when you keep telling me it's not right just

to keep me away from you
You are the only one to me, What can I do

Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it the punishment for loving you so much?
Even though you say that I can lose everything
It's okay if I just have you to be with me

Even if my heart is broken when loving you
Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you
It's okay because I love you
It's okay even if I get hurt

Even if I get poisoned and pricked
My love for you can't stop
I will wait for you until forever
I will endure even if it hurts and hurts

Because of loving you more
It's okay even if tears fall down
It's okay even if it hurts...

I miss you so much..='(

2010-08-04T00:18:00.002+08:00

I'm terribly missing you..

I wanna tell you tat i miss you so much..

BUT...

Thinking twice..Better keep it to myself..

My heart is crying..I'm crying and wishing that i could see you and hug u now..='(

Who can stop my tears?

2010-07-16T11:35:00.002+08:00

My tears keep on falling when ever i think of u..

I really miss u so much..But u will never know..

I'm happy to see u yesterday..I have tat eager to hug u & give u a kiss..

But i know i will not have tat chance..

I'm telling myself to just moved on..I really tried..

But i still can't..I really really love u tat much..Till i can't let u go from my heart..

Even when i'm writing this..My tears just automatically flow..

I dun noe i can stand how long..I definitely will fall one day..

But who is gonna hold me?

Birthday coming soon...

2010-07-14T14:35:00.002+08:00

My birthday coming soon..

I wonder what surprises i will have this year?

Who will celebrate my birthday wit me?

Of all the surprises that i'm gonna get, I just hope i can celebrate my birthday wit ONE person..

That's my ONLY wish..I wonder if he will remember my birthday..

I always dream that he will give me surprises on my birthday..

But i know a dream is a dream..It won't ever become reality..

I'll be so happy..If my wish really come true..Because he's still very important to me..

I really miss him so so much..=(

Ur still in my heart..

2010-05-29T02:55:00.003+08:00

It's almost 2 months, since we broke up..And i still miss u tat much..

Just can't let u go..U were still in my heart till now..

I really wish to see u now..But is hopeless..My heart is really painful..

I have sleepless nites ever since we broke up..

Everynite i must see our pictures, cried 1st, then only fall asleep..

People thought I have recovered..But the truth is I'm not..

Outside i'm smiling but inside my heart is really bleeding..

I dun noe when i can fully recovered..

My heart really stands for u only eventhough there are few approaching me...

But i have REJECTED them..Ur the 1st guy that I ever love so much..

I'm willing to sacrifice & do anything for u..But ur heart has the only ONE person..

Why? Just tell me why do i have to fell in love wit u in the 1st place..

If i don't know u..I would not have fell in love wit u..

Everyday my mind will just automatically think & worry about you..

Hoping that ur alrite there..Hoping that u remember to eat lunch..

Hoping that u will take care of urself..There's too much of worries..

Bcoz i really do care for you so so much..But u won't know all this..

I really miss u so so much..My tears will fall whenever i think of you..

I just love u way too much..Until i dun even know how to let go of u..

The Truth That You Leave (pianoboy)

2010-05-29T02:51:00.000+08:00

Love is....

2010-05-29T02:39:00.000+08:00

Love is when you wake up, he is already on your mind...

Love is when you lost your heart, he is all that you can find.
Love is when you want to be the one to dry his eyes.
Love is when you see the truth in every one of his lies.
Love is when you want to listen to all his whims and woes.
Love is when you want him to take care everywhere he goes.
Love is when he calls you , your heart goes a flutter.
Love is when you see him "I love him." you silently stutter.
Love is when you tell the world that you love him so.
Love is when you've told the world ... but he doesn't know.
Love is when you know you'll still love him when he's lost his hair...
Love is when your eyes light up when you see him there ...
Love is also when you hear your heart breaks when he held hands with her.
Love is also when you crumbled as you hear them say that it will last forever.
Love is also when you cry inside yet smile outside when they say hi to you.
Love is also when you held your breath and said "How do you do?"
Love is also when you let him go ... you know he is happy now.
Love is also when you know you'll get over him somehow.
Love is also when his happiness is what matters to you.
Love is also when you let him love her ... and not love you true.
Love is when you'll still love him ... and still ... he'll never know
Love is when you'll swallow the pain and slowly let go
...Yet.. love is a funny thing ...

Love is when you smile when you hear that it's him and her no more.
Love is when you hear he sent her through the door ...
Love is when you try to "bump" in to him again ...
Love is when he'll say hi to you and there is no more pain.
Love is suddenly real love when he says he loves you too ...
Love is suddenly real love when his life revolves around you.
Love is suddenly real love when he's always loved you but he didn't dare.
Love is suddenly real love when he's always loved you but thought you didn't care ...

Love is suddenly real love when now it's all coming true.
Love is suddenly real love when you love him and he loves you...
Love is suddenly real love when now your life is nearly complete.
Love is suddenly real love when everyday ... it's him you meet.
Love is suddenly real love when you friends accept him too.
Love is suddenly real love when you can have time for them and him and you.
Love is a many splendoured thing ... and a really complex feeling.

SO when you love someone ... just tell him ... or her
... You'll never know how it'll turn out ... one way or the other.

Tell him before he's gone ... tell her before she's
taken ... Confess... confess ... what's there to lose
... When pride and ego's forsaken.
You might never know ... he might love you too.
She or He , might feel the same way for you ...

*******************************
You Never Lose by Loving
You Always Lose by Holding Back

I LOVE YOU-CELINE DION

2010-01-22T17:07:00.003+08:00

I must be crazy now
Maybe I dream too much
But when I think of you
I long to feel your touch

To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine

I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should�ve made my move when you looked in my eyes
�cause by now I know that you�d feel the way that I do
And I�d whisper these words as you�d lie here by my side

I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time

So today, I finally find the courage deep inside
Just to walk right up to your door
But my body can�t move when I finally get to it
Just like a thousand times before

Then without a word he handed me this letter
Read I hope this finds the way into your heart, it said

I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time

Well maybe i, I need a little love yeah
And maybe i, I need a little care
And maybe i, maybe you, maybe you, maybe you
Oh you need somebody just to hold you
If you do, just reach out and I�ll be there

I love you, please say
You love me too
Please say you love me too
Till the end of time
These three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together

Oh, I love you
Please say you love me too
Please please
Say you love me too
Till the end of time
My baby
Together, together, forever
Till the end of time
I love you
I will be your light
Shining bright
Shining through your eyes
My baby

P/S: Dedicate this song to my dearest..=)

I LOVE YOU

2009-11-19T17:17:00.000+08:00

Thinking of you

2009-11-18T10:45:00.002+08:00

You're the first thing I think of

Each morning when I rise

You're the last thing I think of

When I close my eyes

You're in each thought I have

And every breath I take

My feelings are growing stronger

With every move you make

You're an angel from above

who takes away my pain

My love for you is so strong

It's always just the same

You're the miracle in my life

Who can always make me smile

Just knowing that you care

Makes my life worth-while

You've touched my heart and soul

Which you have from the start

Your warm soft words

Will never leave my heart

You are everything I want

You're so pure and true

I love you with everything I have

And I love everything that you do.

Love you truely, deeply...

2009-11-16T17:38:00.004+08:00

I have been trying my best to change watever u wanted me to do..
But somewhere, somehow..There's something missing..
I still dun have a place in your heart..It really breaks my heart..
But I still won't give up on you..Coz i really love you..
I don't wanna loose you anymore..

You really stand an important place in my life..
Only God knows how deeply i felt in love wit u..
From what we have been discussing yesterday..
I know u were still finding the chemistry between us..
Just take your time..I really can wait for you till you accepted me..

Whatever I have promise you..I will try my best to do for you..
Please don't ever think tat i don't miss you..I did not think of you..I did not sayang you..
Every day and night, I'm thinking of you and missing you..
Even when i sleep, you're the one appearing in my dreams..

Even now i wanted to go and find you..But u were busy doing work..=(
Whatever I wanna tell from my heart..I have told you..
I just hope that we can get back together...
That's the only wish i was hoping from you..
Mike, I really love you so much..Muackz..

Love you always...^^

Cancer Woman

2009-08-13T14:14:00.002+08:00

When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and polite trembling
to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you
all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have every
lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is not the case,
you will feel very uncomfortable.

She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she
will be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has been
influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if
you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept
her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first.

She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be
funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other people
may think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting".

When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She
loves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". She will
not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help
you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.

She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman also
influenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinating
woman.

She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smart enough,
not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. Assuring
her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day.

She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old
or broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find a
way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive.

The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one
with no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget
it. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue
with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her
tears and start clean up her apartment normally.

She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the
way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is
your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother in
law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate".

She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women,
but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue with her and
disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K.
This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.

The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love". She can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with
no Love.

P/S: It's so accurate..And i took tis from my fren's profile in facebook...

First day of class...

2009-03-11T00:27:00.002+08:00

The first day of class is so interesting..=)
First of all, our teacher has run through all the rules & regulations of the course..
Second, we had an explanation about what to buy and the pricing..
Then, our lesson starts..Which is about eye brown..
We learn how to draw natural eye brown & perfect eye brown..
Therefore, we have to do homework on the 1st day of class..Which is drawing eye brown..
So, I think i better stop here and continue drawing..Tomorrow need to let the teacher see..^^

Back to normal LIFE...

2009-03-09T21:36:00.002+08:00

From tomorrow onwards, I will be starting my class in professional make up..=)
No more sitting in the house doing nothing..Back to my study life..YEAH!! So happy..

Paprika is her name....

2009-03-05T17:44:00.000+08:00

One of my choir members wife has give birth to a baby girl..
Guess what?? Her name is PAPRIKA..Her daddy named her..
I know is weird..But if you know her daddy's name..Then u won't feel weird anymore..
Because her daddy's name is PEPPER...Haha..=p
She's so cute and lovely..She look exactly like her daddy..
Anyway, just wanna congratulate them...Enjoy the pictures below..=)

This is Pepper carrying her...

Welcome to My Blog...

2009-02-13T10:31:00.000+08:00

Hello, everyone...Welcome to my blog..Haha..Lost of words..Don't know what to say..Anyway, I will update my blog frequently..Have a nice day ahead!! =)